Date: 2010-01-16 04:37 Subject: 017. Security: Public

( private to self: )

Game day!

I can't help being excited. I just love everything about playing, win or lose -- though, I mean I'll be aiming to win, of course.

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Date: 2009-12-27 21:13 Subject: 016. Security: Public

private to Tasha:

I have

Furniture shopping, my arse.

/private.

private to CM:

You will never guess what Tasha did!

/private.

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Date: 2009-12-09 01:57 Subject: 015. Security: Public

private to CM:
I tried to figure out how to say this five times without making a dumb remark

I know I've been preoccupied with the play, especially last weekend and most of the week, actually, but... there's something wrong, isn't there? I mean... I know you told me that your brother's sick and I'm sure you're worried about him, but... I just. I don't like seeing you not happy. So can you talk to me?
/private.

I always forget how quickly time passes. I can't believe we're less than two weeks away from Christmas hols. Thankfully.

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Date: 2009-11-14 01:44 Subject: 014. Security: Public

Friday the Thirteenth always creeps me out when it coincides with my birthday. I don't know what it is about it, but it does.

( private to self: )

On the bright side, I still had a good day! It would have been even better if I could have benefited from at least one canceled class this week, though.

But thank you for all the gifts and well wishes! I love everything.

private to CM:
Thank you for your gifts. Though... my favourite had to be the one you gave me in person.
/private.

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Date: 2009-10-27 20:47 Subject: 013. Security: Public

private to Roxanne:
My sister said  I don't know if you already know

Do you need anything?
/private.

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Date: 2009-10-27 18:08 Subject: 012. Security: Public

I think the most nerve-racking thing in the world is telling someone important to you something that you don't know if they'll understand or respond positively to and having to wait for their response.

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Date: 2009-10-13 02:21 Subject: 011. Security: Public

Hogsmeade was great. And fun.

I've also decided on my costume for the dance, but I'm keeping what it is to myself for now.

private to self:
I don't know if I can pull it off. I mean. It fits. Perfectly. But I don't know if i'm comfortable with something fitting so perfectly. It's just. Very. I don't know. But I'm kind of interested in CM's reaction?

At least I have two and a half weeks to try to get over it?
/private.

private to CM:
I still feel like I should have gotten you a gift or something. Maybe I have something you'd like that I can offer instead?
/private.

private to Natasha:
You were right. I can admit it.
/private.

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Date: 2009-10-04 02:19 Subject: 010. Security: Public

private to self:
It's in my nature is to be obsessive, I know this. i mean, at this point, it'd be kind of crazy if I couldn't recognise something so obvious. But still. I can't help thinking about the fact that if it's just the two of us, and not some big... i don't know, group thing... does that make it a d da date? Like. I mean. I'm not thinking that just because CM likes girls in that way that it means it has to be a date, but I don't know. There's just something about whenever I spend time with her that makes me wonder if she might like me in that way since I


oh.


oh my god.

/private.

private to Natasha:

I have a problem. A very big problem.

/private.

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Date: 2009-09-23 23:40 Subject: 009. Security: Public

private to Rachel:
I'm confused about something and I don't know what to do and I think I have someone mad at me even though they said they could never get mad at me, but that was before I asked them a question I probably shouldn't have asked them but I did anyway and then things got kind of awkward and it sucks because I don't like the idea of this person possibly being mad at me because I like spending time with them but it's weird because I don't think I like her them in that way, I'm kind of pretty sure about that fact, but

Maybe I'm just overreacting.

Or maybe I'm not.

I don't know!



But what if I'm not overreacting and they, the person I mean, really are mad at me?

Help me stop being completely mental?! Please?!
/private.

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Date: 2009-09-22 16:02 Subject: 008. Security: Public

I think my favourite thing about being back at school is a tie between Charms class and Quidditch. The first game really can't come quickly enough.

I haven't decided how I feel about the documentary. I probably won't do anything interesting enough, anyway. I guess it'll be interesting to see how it works out.

private to cm:
I was wondering I've been

Okay. So I've had

There's this thing I've

I've been trying not to ask but I'm tired of

I have something I wanted to ask you, and I'm not really sure if it's the type of question you can ask over journals or if you should ask in person, but either way it sort of makes me a bit nervous to ask because I don't want you to get mad at me for asking, but I've been keeping myself from asking for about a month now, so that should count for something, right?
/private.

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Date: 2009-09-12 01:53 Subject: 007. Security: Public

private to self:
I forgot to include my other activities!

( revised schedule )

Moving on...

It's official. I have an obsessive personality. That question that was taking over my life a couple of weeks ago of what CM thought I was more interested in with the metaphor for girls and boys probably doesn't even need to be asked, because I'm pretty sure that I already know the answer and that answer is yes.

So that should be it, right? Done. Finished, move on with my life? No. Not even close. Now, after last weekend spending more time with her I'm wondering what made her want to know, and that maybe it's because... but if that's why, does she? But I'm not. Or maybe I am. A little. I guess. I can't ask her though, can I, because that would be even more awkward than the question that started this mess. So I'll just. Yeah. See what happens?

Oh one day I'm going to just blurt it out like the spaz that I am.
/private.

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Date: 2009-09-04 03:49 Subject: 006. Security: Public

( Schedule! )

Having absolutely no classes on Thursday might be kind of brilliant. For one thing, today I had nowhere to be. But I think maybe, as we get further into the semester, I might use it as study time. Or just whatever comes up, I guess.

I will give no opinion on everything else

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Date: 2009-08-22 22:32 Subject: 005. Security: Public

Have you ever had something stuck in your head and found it rather hard to think of anything else?

private to self:
Mainly I'm referring to Claire Molly. Well, and her question about the sirens/argonauts. It's just that it's an odd question, considering what it's hidden meaning is. Maybe I did or said something that might've given her the idea? Not that I know what.

And I can just see it now. I'm just going to think about it and keep thinking about it until I ask her. Only  I'm not going to ask her because I'm kind of... I don't know. Worried? Yes. Slightly worried on what kind of answer she'd give. And maybe I'm being unnecessarily paranoid because it wasn't even that important or earth shattering of a question. It was just nice talking to her so I'm hoping that's not the one and only time ever.

Why am I such a spaz?
/private.

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Date: 2009-08-06 22:53 Subject: 004. Security: Public

I am so damn bored.

private to self:
I mean.

I guess I'm glad there's not a chance of drama in my life like ninety percent of my schoolmates, and I'm glad Natasha's probably going to stop insisting that Roland Higgs and I run away together and get married because I'm really not at all interested and I'm pretty sure he's not even close to interested either, but...

I read Flowers for Algernon. Twice. I know it's a favourite and all, bit I think that was two times too many. I think dad thinks I'm a loner.

At least the sleepover will probably be entertaining?!
/private.

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Date: 2009-07-12 14:43 Subject: 003. Security: Public

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Charms was no surprise. But Potions?! I passed! I have no idea how that actually happened, but I passed! Of course it's still one of the worst grades I received, but... maybe... well I do still have two years to make an attempt to improve that, don't I? So maybe I don't have to drop Potions anymore.

Other than that, as nice as I guess it'd be to have a job, I kind of like the idea of just lazing about all summer long. And I'm not looking forward to September. There being new things to learn doesn't lessen that fact.

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Date: 2009-07-06 22:24 Subject: 002. Security: Public

A few more days, then. Have I took the time out lately to mention how much I hate waiting, because I really, really do.

I should have gotten a summer job or something.

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Date: 2009-06-21 17:01 Subject: 001. Security: Public

I haven't decided how to spend my summer yet, and I'm not really in a rush. The holiday's just started after all. But I'm definitely glad that the year is over. I was starting to feel antsy. What I do know is that no matter what my OWLs say, I can't sit through another year of Potions.

Which... would be for the good of myself and everyone in the class.

Mum says I could get better if I really tried, but I think that it's been five years and I'm still horrible, so it's about time to give up.

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Date: 2009-06-17 01:56 Subject: 000. Security: Public

( Any one who has common sense will remember that the bewilderments of the eye are of two kinds, and arise from two causes, either from coming out of the light or from going into the light, which is true of the mind's eye, quite as much as of the bodily eye. )

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